Going through infertility has given me a different perspective on motherhood. When I was first diagnosed with PCOS, I could no longer see how motherhood would fit in my future. That probably sounds really negative, but it is how I was feeling at the time. I was in my younger 20s and was not very optimistic that motherhood would be a part of my life.
I am so thankful that I was wrong.
Raising Zoey has been the best gift from God – there aren’t words to adequately explain how I feel when it comes to being her mother. While I think infertility has made me a better mom (not better than other moms, but better than I probably would have been personally without infertility), it has also made raising her harder. As her babyhood slipped through my fingers, her toddler years zipped past me, and now she’s officially this big kid and I have no idea how it happened so fast. I long for another baby to hold in my arms to call my own, and I long for the experience of watching Zoey be a big sister.
If you’re following me on Instagram, you probably saw that she started Kindergarten. If you’re not on IG, I’ll catch you up: