Who remembers this post on Instagram that I made on the last day of 2018?
Notice how it says “God has to move some mountains… and until he does, we’ll wait.” I’m excited to say that God has definitely moved mountains, and while it’s not the mountain I’ve been praying for since 2012, it’s the mountain that I’ve been praying for release to pursue. Every time I prayed about this in the last 7+ years, I’ve been met with “just wait”. I’ve never felt called to it even though I’ve prayed to be called. It’s been very frustrating, to say the least. Waiting is a badge I’ve been wearing for a long time.
The secret is ready to be revealed:
Can I just say how relieved I am that we finally feel released to do this? The last several years have felt like one big fat roadblock, between failed fertility treatments, the miracle pregnancy that ended in miscarriage, reclaiming our home, and more waiting, tears, and prayers. All the while we’ve been met with comments such as “why don’t you just adopt“, as if adoption cures infertility and is something you just do. Let’s be real people, adoption isn’t like going to the grocery store and picking out a watermelon. There isn’t a cabbage patch that you just go pick a baby from. There are so many factors involved and it’s expensive, as in double or triple the cost of doing IVF. And it’s a calling. I truly believe that and have always said that. It’s a calling that we were not called to until December 2018, and even then we were so skeptical!
In February, the journey began. A dear, sweet friend reached out to us who works in the world of adoption and she had no idea that we had already been secretly talking about pursuing it. She came to us burdened by God to offer us hope, and it was that day that truly began a snowball effect toward adoption! That same night, we told Zoey our plan to pursue adoption and she bawled her eyes out in complete joy. All she kept saying was “thank you for being willing to adopt.” It was the most precious moment and we knew then and there that all three of us were being called, not just the adults.
From that meeting to today has been filled with research. Lots and lots of research. And waiting. We don’t jump into anything lightly, and we knew that if we were going to pursue adoption, we needed to fully understand every option available to us. All the while, we only allowed a small group of people to know what we were up to. Until now. 😉 We have a long way to go. We are as early in the process as we can be.
In terms of our timeline (because I know December 2018 to June 2019 is a long time), our first plan was to get past our Disney trip. We needed that trip for just the three of us so badly. We deserved it, we earned it, and we went into it knowing we’d come home and start this new journey immediately. So here we are! WE’RE ADOPTING! We’ll take you along with us as much as we can while also respecting the journey at hand (we’ll need to keep a lot of things very private), because let’s face it, as beautiful as adoption is, it’s also immensely tragic. We intend to respect and honor this future child’s story and his/her first family – the birth family. We’ll share what we can but ask that you respect the lack of sharing certain intimate details as well. Stay tuned for more info!
In the meantime, we covet your prayers!