It’s been a while since I’ve posted a general life update, so I figured it was time for one. Things have been quiet on the blog lately, but it’s not because I’m not writing. I have 3-4 posts in the works at the same time, but I can’t seem to finish them. It’s like my stamina only goes so far, and then my brain switches gears so I start something new. I think part of me feels obligated to write compelling content about infertility, treatment options, etc, but nothing I’ve been coming up with lately feels good enough, so I stop and move on to the next subject. I’ve been more active on Facebook and Instagram instead. I intend to remedy this soon because this little corner of the internet is precious to me. Sometimes I forget that it’s okay to write… simply just to write. Sometimes just to say “hello, this is my life right now” is fine. So today, that is what I am doing.
Life in General
As a distraction to infertility, I’ve been pouring my energy and attention into planning, thinking about, and dreaming of our upcoming vacations. This year we have 3 trips planned:
- June: Cincinnati to visit my dear friend Emily from college (Hi Emily!) and go to King’s Island. I am so looking forward to catching up and watching our girls play together!
- July: Gatlinburg for my 10-year wedding anniversary (15 together) with Glenn. Just the two of us! We have an AirBNB waiting on us in the mountains and I can’t wait! We plan to keep this very low key and cheap. I need a good hike so we’ll definitely find a trail with a waterfall to visit and hope it’s not burned down from the recent wildfires. I look forward to putting a little money back into the economy of the Smoky Mountains.
- October: Legoland and Disney World! I told you guys we’d go back to Disney in 2 years when we went on our last trip (read about it here), and we’re doing it! But this time, we’re adding a stop to Legoland before hitting Disney, so that will be really exciting. I’ve been reading menus, pinning tips and tricks on Pinterest, scouring Etsy for cute clothes to wear, and researching options for our costumes for Mickey’s Not-So-Scary Halloween Party. My group went as Alice in Wonderland characters last time, and this time we chose Peter Pan. So if you’re seeing a lot of Neverland related pins on my Pinterest lately, now you know why!
In other news, Zoey turns 7 in a little over 3 weeks, so my momma heart has been boohooing as I look at old pictures of her and think about what a miracle she truly is.
For her birthday this year, we are making some design changes to give her more of a “big girl room”. She specifically asked for new bedding, and that she keep her birdy and flower theme going, but wants more “big girl” stuff. In my heart, I love that she is so in love with the birds and flowers theme that I chose for her nursery. I was hoping it would transcend many years for her and it truly has. So we’re essentially adding onto that theme and ditching the toddler-esque bedding she is using. Because she is so obsessed with the show Fixer Upper, she actually asked to be surprised and have us reveal the room to her when it’s finished (HA!). So the plan is to get her out of the house the weekend before her birthday and go to town on her room. I can’t wait!
The sad part of this room update? She has officially decided to put away her kitchen because she doesn’t play with it anymore. We have the white vintage KidKraft Kitchen and it is amazing quality, so instead of selling that bad boy, we intend to save it for future children (please Jesus, let’s make this happen) or her future children. Yep, the grandma in me is already thinking about my future grandchildren. We’re also saving the Melissa and Doug wooden food (especially her sushi set), because these are quality items that will stay in great condition for years and years. As hard as she has played with them, they still look brand new.
There are only two toys that are never to be sold: her kitchen and her KidKraft Savannah dollhouse. Thankfully, she plays with that dollhouse like crazy, so it will stay in her room. But the kitchen coming out is a sign of her age. Oh, how it makes my heart ache. Especially when she made the comment: “I really hope I can have a brother or sister… or maybe 2 or 3 brothers and sisters so they can play with it, too.” Ouch.
Soccer season is starting back up next week, so we’ve got that to keep us busy through the end of May as well. Watching all those kids run around warms my heart. We’re not really a sports family by any means, but children’s soccer is definitely fun (and pretty cheap for an extracurricular activity).
I am nervously anticipating how much longer two of our four pets will be members of our family. Our dog Lily is 14 years old and keeps getting these fatty tumors that we’d normally leave alone, except they keep rupturing, causing risk of infection. Last June, she had a massive one removed from her leg, and it seems to have returned in a cluster of 3 smaller ones. She just finished her antibiotic (because one burst again) and steroid to shrink them. Her wonderful groomer also found one in a very bad spot that is inoperable. I’m so grateful that she found it because it is in a spot we wouldn’t have noticed. Thankfully, the steroid shrunk it tremendously, but it’s only a short-term fix. At this point, I’m simply waiting to see if Lily goes into pain and suffering. I won’t let her suffer. I also won’t put her through another surgery at 14 years old just to selfishly keep her with me longer. I love her too much to do that to her. So for now, we are just loving on this sweet girl as much as possible, spoiling her rotten, and keeping an eye on her.
The other pet in question is Vesta, our stinky old cat who is also 14 years old, and up until recently looked like she was about to crawl into her death bed. She was losing weight rapidly, her behavior changed, and she was throwing up every day. In November, I was preparing myself to put her down in January. I figured we’d make it through one last Christmas and then say goodbye. But something in me decided to try one more change in her food, and it was a complete game changer. She gained her weight back, stopped throwing up every day, and while her personality has changed again (she is a crazy senile old lady), she no longer looks like she is on her death bed and has gotten some of her playfulness back. She still needs some blood work done to check on all of her levels, but I feel a little bit better about her condition. For now, anyway.
Our other two pets seem to be doing fine. Yumi is our adventurous cat who is roughly 12 years old now and is as loving and feisty as ever. Although she has more allergies than any cat I’ve ever seen, she loves the great outdoors and can take down a bird more than half her size in 0.2 seconds. She is a good mouser and is Lily’s sidekick when they are outside together.
The fish, Christoph (yes, as in Christoph from Frozen), has managed to live 14 months in our home, which is pretty good for a beta. He actually has quite the personality for a fish. I didn’t really think fish had personalities, and I’m not new to having betas, but this fish knows our voices and gets extremely excited when we talk to him. He seems to actually like us, and somehow has lived longer than I thought he would, because I mean… fish. They just don’t stick around. This little guy seems to be thriving though, after one scare where we thought for sure he was dying. Turns out he was probably just constipated (the joys of having access to Google), so after not feeling him for a weekend, he bounced right back.
Fish, I tell you. Ask my author friend Jennifer about her fish sometime. Hi Jennifer!
So that’s pretty much it for this life update. Things are good overall. I’m in planning/daydream mode and it makes me happy. It’s a nice distraction from the things I can’t control. Sometimes distractions are good.