I feel like I have been really quiet lately.
There has just been a lot going on.
Some I can talk about. Some I can’t discuss just yet because I need a circle to close so I have a full story before sharing. But life is moving all around me, in many good ways and in some weird ways, but it’s moving.
On June 8, I ended up in the ER with a severe back spasm in my rhomboid major muscles (just like I did in January 2015), which turned out to be the result of a thoracic spine strain (possibly an exercise injury from the day before). The positive is that I recovered a lot quicker, and I attribute it to the fact that I exercise regularly now. The first time it happened, I was on muscle relaxers and in bed for almost an entire week. This time, within a couple of days I was able to set the muscle relaxers aside and just function on Aleve. HUGE praise to God for that! Imagine having a charlie horse across your upper back that doesn’t release for days. That is exactly what this felt like.
A week later, I ended up with a mild upper respiratory infection, which gave me a nasty cough with lots of phlegm to cough up, but really no other symptoms. Zoey had it 2 weeks prior, so I definitely got it from her. That’s what I get for kissing all over her. 😉 Sweet baby girl. I’m on the tail-end of the infection and am almost completely better. Mornings and evenings are still rough, but it’s improving.
As a result of all of this, I didn’t exercise at all for 3 weeks. I thought this would be a huge set back and that surely I’d gained weight over that time, but much to my surprise, I actually lost more weight and am officially 3 lbs away from my secondary goal. I’ve lost 24 lbs since early January!
Infertility wise, there just isn’t an update. The Conceivable has made a wonderful improvement in my periods themselves in terms of less clotting, but the length of them hasn’t changed yet. The ER visit and being sick has messed up my consistency with taking Conceivable this month, so I’m way off track on it, but doing the best I can for now. Sometimes when there is a flurry of other things going on in life, certain things just aren’t priority. I can only focus on so much at once and sometimes I just have to let certain things go.
My infertility is completely out of my control right now.
Yeah, I’d rather be pregnant or even trying. But I once again have a glimpse into why I’m not yet, and it’s not just because my ovaries are lazy. I can’t share yet, but once I have more info on a certain situation I am handling right now, I’ll share. Just know it has nothing to do with my family, my marriage, or my health. This is beyond those things.
In the meantime… while I wait for that situation to resolve itself… here I am. I’m still here. I recently got an opportunity to write a fun sponsored post that will go live once the sponsor finalizes some details, so I can’t wait to share that with you all. Hopefully I can get a few more of those going, and once our medical bills are paid off, I can set aside more funds for future infertility treatments.
Only God knows what is on the horizon. I don’t know if I will do Follistim and IUI again… or what is going to happen. I simply don’t know. But what I do know is that I haven’t had peace to move forward with treatment (nor the funds to do so), and as of June 17, I know why. I’ll share details on the “why” as soon as I feel like I can.
I will say, I am so very thankful right now for friends and family who speak life into me and who call out the things in me that are good and true. I am thankful for those who don’t try to play therapist, and who offer Godly counsel. I am thankful for those who encourage me to pursue my passion and my better judgement. I am so thankful that I have these people in my lives.