On Monday morning, I shared that I had started what appeared to be a new cycle over the weekend, and I was crushed. I did receive confirmation on Monday night that my hCG level was 0 and my E2 was 42. This means that even though my progesterone level was great after the trigger and IUI, my body clearly did not maintain it, and my luteal phase ended too soon. I started a new cycle on 10dpIUI when it should have been more like 14dpIUI. It’s just painful to even think about. I keep thinking: “What if there was an embryo and it had nowhere to go because my lining detached too soon?”
It’s just awful to think about. I really need to stop.
On Monday night, I started a new Follistim cycle. We didn’t do a baseline scan, but since we grouped the E2 in with the hCG check, we were ready to go. 42 is the lowest E2 I’ve had so far. It explains why I was a crying mess all weekend… it went from the 2,000s last week to 42 pretty quickly.
So today I am on CD5. On Friday (CD 7), I will have my first follicle ultrasound of this cycle and another E2. I’m sure I’ll share results on Facebook or Instagram, and will report back here with complete details on Monday. At this point, I’m just ready to move on. If things move decently fast this time like they did last time, then I hope to trigger and IUI before Christmas.
But we know what happens when I try to plan anything fertility related.
So do me a huge favor… please don’t ask when we plan to trigger… or plan to have an IUI. It’ll happen when it happens. I honestly have no idea. I have hopes for a specific timeline, but that means nothing in the grand scheme of things. I’ve learned to expect the unexpected. So alas, I don’t have an answer for you… I don’t have an answer for myself. Don’t be surprised if I respond to you with a shoulder shrug and a blank stare. Or this face: