I am officially in my last cycle before starting up fertility treatments again and there is a flood of emotions going through me.
On Saturday, we had hubby tested because it had been nearly 7 years since his first test. For those who don’t know, we do have male-factor infertility (MFI) in addition to my PCOS. This isn’t something that I talk about on this blog because I feel like it isn’t my story to tell… and while it does affect my ability to conceive, I’m not comfortable sharing specifics on his behalf on the blog.
When we were trying to conceive Zoey, we were told that scientifically, we could not conceive on our own due to my PCOS and his MFI combined, that it would take an IUI. However, I distinctly remember my doctor telling me “Science will tell you that you can’t conceive without an IUI. I am a hopeless romantic and I think you can do this. You can conceive on your own. I refuse to give you a percent-chance of conceiving because it won’t do you any good. Just don’t give up yet.” I’ll never forget those words, and I’ll never forget the feeling I had when she was right. We did conceive Zoey without an IUI on our 7th round of Clomid (5th consecutive). To this day, I remember hubby’s test result numbers, but I don’t know how they translate to what our percent chance was to conceive. All I know is we have a miracle named Zoey in our lives today.
All that to say, the test results on Saturday were given to us instantly, and were actually better than we expected…
I think I held my breath the entire time my doctor was hovered over the microscope. The results weren’t perfect by any means, but they were a lot different than 7 years ago – different as in better, but we still need an IUI to conceive. As such, our infertility treatment plan is to move forward with the injectibles and we will definitely do an IUI. I was terrified that we’d be told on Saturday that we did not qualify for IUI due to the analysis… I was nearly shaking at the thought, because I’m not willing to do IVF, so if we didn’t qualify for IUI, we would be done with fertility treatments. Thankfully, we qualify, and there will be a lot of monitoring involved and a lot of prayers.
With having PCOS, my cycles are definitely unpredictable and can range from a perfect 30 days to months apart. However, you all know how it never fails, I always get “george” when I’m on vacation (remember this post?). If (big if) I happen to have a perfect 30-day cycle, which happens a few random times each year, then I’ll have “george” at Disney World.
I talked to my doctor about this being a possibility and she did offer to give me a birth control pack to control this cycle a little more intently. I politely declined and decided I’d rather just stay natural, but if she was okay with it, I’d like to use progesterone to lengthen my luteal phase so I won’t get “george” until I at least get home. If I start while at Disney, I’ll have to wait until November before starting treatment, due to the sensitive schedule with injectibles. I must be home for cycle day 2 so I can start that day. She was okay with my plan to use progesterone to keep my period from coming on vacation, so that is the plan. I’m very in tune with what my body is doing, so if I suspect I ovulated at any point, even if it’s weak ovulation, I’ll know it, and I’ll start progesterone one week later to lengthen the cycle so I can make it home in time.
So right now, the plan is to start treatment when we get home from Disney World (hopefully the week after we return), and hit the ground running with ultrasounds, estrogen draws, injections and planning for an IUI. I’m going to do a separate post next week on the specifics of our infertility treatment plan, so stay tuned for that! I’m excited, anxious, nervous… pretty much a big ball of emotions ready to burst any moment!