Yep, that picture is definitely Zoey. That was our 18 week ultrasound with her… when we were told that she was certainly a little girl! At 15 weeks we thought we spotted “her” and were convinced we were right about our suspicion all along. This ultrasound session sealed the deal.
We started trying to grow our family of 3 to a family of 4 about 31 months ago (ouch), and during that time I’ve been slowing preparing for a new addition to our family. Mainly in the sense of collecting cloth diapers, different bottles to try, a Moby wrap, etc. I collect a few things here and there as I purge some of the old. But there is one thing that has struck me the most: I miss physically being pregnant. I miss it a lot. It’s easy to complain about pregnancy because quite frankly it really is hard making another human. A lot of weird things happen in pregnancy… like a random unexplainable rash on the tops of both of your feet, a placenta that splits in two, your feet growing two shoe sizes (they went back to normal), and so many other things. But in the grand scheme of things, the difficult moments are totally worth it because at the end of it all is a precious gift. A miracle. A sweet little baby. I had my fair share of crazy pregnancy moments, but I’d do it all over again. I miss being pregnant.
I’m feeling sentimental, so I’m going to take a stroll down memory lane. I might get really sad just typing this post, but here it goes. Here are 8 things I miss about pregnancy:
1. The Anticipation
That feeling of waiting and wondering – what will the baby look like? What kind of personality will he/she bring? Is it a he/she? How will labor and delivery go? Just the whole anticipation and the planning that you have during those 9 months… I miss it.
2. Maternity Clothes
Call me crazy, but I miss maternity clothes. The stretchy pants, the dainty tops that drape the belly… maternity clothes are seriously wonderful. I know not everyone agrees – they feel fat and unflattering, but I felt completely beautiful when pregnant. Every woman should.
3. Shopping with Purpose
When you’re pregnant, it seems like you buy everything with purpose… everything is purchased with the baby in mind. Everything. From groceries, to furniture, to cleaning supplies, to clothes… if you need it, it’s picked out with the baby in mind.
4. No George
Other than the bleeding scare I had at 9 weeks along, I didn’t have a period, and it wasn’t from PCOS making me anovulatory! It was from new life. I miss that. Not even thinking about whether it was maybe time for one.. oh, the freedom.
5. Fulfilling Cravings
There is one thing I noticed immediately about pregnancy and that was cravings… when you take care of one, oh my goodness, it’s a glorious moment. You don’t truly understand cravings until you’re pregnant. When it hits and you fulfill it… aaaahhhh. Angels sing. All seems right with the world in that moment.
Sure, I get ultrasounds while going through fertility treatment, but ultrasounds when pregnant is an entirely different experience. Watching how much the baby changes with each ultrasound is just incredible, from that first little yolk sack, to the gummy bear, to the alien, to the pudgy baby. I’m so thankful for the technology.
7. Doctor’s Appointments
I honestly miss going to appointments. You get an excuse to just talk about everything related to pregnancy, to get measured, to ask questions. I really miss those appointments. You pretty much live your life anticipating the next appointment, and I miss that season of life.
8. Feeling the Baby Move
Man oh man, I miss this one the most. Feeling Zoey move was the most wonderful experience – from the kicks and punches to the hiccups. Every time she’d roll over, it just reminded me how truly lucky I was to get to experience it.
Zoey asked me last night if I had a baby in my belly yet. I hate having to tell her no, because then she asks “why not?”