Since I have officially started a new job, jumping back onto the TTC bandwagon is definitely on hold for a few more months. I’m on month 5 post-Clomid and have had 4 cycles within that time frame, which is awesome! Since my Quick Update post where I shared how my cycles were going while on natural supplements, I’ve had one more cycle and it was a perfect 30-day cycle. I kind of wish I knew for sure what the egg quality was like and if my lining is even doing okay, but I’m holding onto hope since I am ovulating… maybe I’m naive, but I am hopeful that natural conception could be possible as long as I stay on course. I’ve had some people tell me “Well if you’re ovulating, that has to mean the egg quality is good.” Wrong. I’ve ovulated a 14mm oval-shaped follicle before… nothing is happening off of that. Trust me.
My real hope is that when I’m ready to get back into TTC, I can get a follicle ultrasound and be told that my ovaries look great and that there are less cysts. I’ve had less pain in general (less rupture activity), so that has to mean something right? For a while there, especially toward the end of my Clomid regimen, my ovaries looked terrible on the ultrasounds. The tech wouldn’t even count follies and she had a very hard time navigating through what was there. I’m curious to know what is going on in there, but in the meantime, I’m not doing a thing. My new job doesn’t have as much flexibility with time off as my old one, so I can’t just go to an appointment and then make up the time later, or work from home after the appointment. This is going to take great creative planning or a miracle, honestly.
So here I am. I kind of hope we can start really trying again this fall. I’m thinking September. And when I say that, I mean I’ll start using OPKs again, probably temping (ugh), and will bring red raspberry leaf tea and pomegranate juice back into my routine. For now, I’m only doing the maca, L-Arginine and royal jelly, and all three are best friends for uterine and ovarian health, so while we’re on hold, I’m not doing any additional effort beyond those three items. For the rest of this year, I won’t touch fertility drugs, and the main reason is honestly the job situation and basically starting back at square one with available time off. Maybe in January we’ll get back into fertility medication and the doctor’s appointments, but I am praying so hard that we don’t have to. Hubby is even taking vitamins and maca, which is supposed to be helpful.
On another note, am I weird for looking up my new company’s maternity leave policy in the employee manual on the first day? THE FIRST DAY. Yeah, I’m that girl…